Tuesday, March 01, 2005

thankful...

yesterday, i thought i was about to end a wonderful relationship...i've never been this scared before... i've been putting so much energy into my fears rather than into building a more stable relationship... i know i have lots of things to be thankful for...(everyone has! maybe juz like me, we're juz too blinded with our fears, doubts and anxieties to see them)

FLASHBACK!
FEB 25, 2005 - 10:00 pm...Our whole team went to EK (grbe d ko pala to pinagpasalamat, imagine an escape from city life tpos for free and syempre im wid d fun people of retek din! So thank God for this day) I had a great time...so much fun hanging wid my teammates... i endured the heat of the son, hurrah! i got the chance to sit at the back of the van (this is where cool kids used to sit during our h.s. days heheh, right gery?) so kahit sobrang sikip na naming apat nila marge, gers and gery dun ayun tiniis namin coz we're cool heheheh, it's fun forgetting my old self and becoming a kid again...t'was good...

FEB 25, 2005 - 6:00 pm...it was time for me to go...i felt a twinge of sadness as i left EK but upon seeing my dear frend everything lit up again... i'v missed him so much even if it was only a day that i haven't seen him. He invited me to his house and to my surprise he introduced me to his parents... GOSH! i was soooo happy (so thankful!) it's wat iv always wanted... his parents were really nice... i ate dinner wid dem and eventually i felt at home... iv been to their house before but this time it was different... basta d ko maipaliwanag un saya...ewan ko ba kung bakit ganun...ung mga gantong pagkakataon eh bigla bigla nlng natatabunan ng mga takot at pangamba...

after a few hours his friends arrived... i was in cloud 9 hahaha...

then...it's time... he escorted me back to our house... the day ended but the memories would forever linger... t'was good...

FEB 28, 2005... i can't believe it..im being paranoid again... i doubted his feelings, more so his intentions which he evidently proved me wrong... another thing to be thankful about is the fact that he cares for me and that he's mature enough to deal with my childishness..though it sucks that i get to be sermoned at every once in a while, i know 'tis also for my own good n that he really does care for me...

another thing.. i thank God for the friends i have whom i can always trust and count on.. i love them so much! yesterday... t'was good...

AT PRESENT...
'tis a new day... Note to self...remember the scene from LOTR The Return of the King... frodo was looking at Mt. Mordor and was almost losing hope...wen sam wise said... let's first go down the slope...iv got to take that first step in order for me to reach that place where i can finally rest myself upon...



1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

aoitenshi:

Oh cuz! This sounds exactly like how I was with Mike. Chill, take it easy, don't over-analyze things. My fears weren't exactly unfounded, usually when your intuition tells you something there must be something there, but there's a way to deal with things in a light manner. :)

10:39 PM, March 15, 2005  

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